Well the lake was fun. We took the boat, inflated it, paddled around, I jumped out and swam around, we nibbled on PB&J and chicken salad, sipped some wine and spent pretty much the entire day out there. We're both sunburned to a crisp which is fine with me because my sun burns usually turn into tans within 24-48 hours but Snackers is miserable.
I slept like crap last night! We went to bed sometime around 9 and I woke up at 11:00 pm because Snackers was hogging the blanket and with a sun burn we were both freezing so I had to wake up to cover myself up. Woke up again at midnight completely parched and needing water. Woke up again around 2:30 because the dog was just spinning circles in her basket on the floor and the sound of it woke me up so I yelled at her to knock it off and went back to sleep. Woke up again around 4:30 for the exact same reason so I got up to use the bathroom, locked the dog in her kennel in the living room, stole some of the blanket back from Snackers and went back to sleep. Woke up again around 5:30 because I must have been dreaming that my new boss was calling me to work and I was pissed about it. Instead of realizing it was a dream and going back to sleep I decided that I wasn't going to let him think he could call me whenever he wanted and went back to sleep thinking I was ignoring him. Woke up at 6:30 because I was afraid I had overslept the alarm and was late for work, realized I was actually 15 minutes early and just decided 'to hell with it' and got up. It was only then that I realized my boss hadn't called me at all and it was just a dream.
Gained back 1.5 lbs from last week's weigh in and if Tuesday's cheat weigh-in of a potential 2 lb loss can be trusted that means I may have actually gained 3.5 lbs in four days. That feels like crap. I'm irritated and frustrated with the way I've been acting lately. I had this huge food epiphany and then fell into my old habits of thinking that success means a green light to screw up. I don't know why I do this; it's a form of self-sabotage and I just don't understand the psychological reason behind it. Clearly I have issues though. Here's to hoping I can get my damn head in the right place and get back with the program.
6 glasses of water
1 cup of coffee w/creamer
1 serving greek chicken salad
1 healthy choice meal
2 Tbsps peanut butter
>>10 baby pickles
3 oz white wine
Daily Caloric Intake: 900 (wow, exact!)